Words of wisdom

You can't argue with the truth.

Fate has a way of getting to you.

Justice is served by power, not by right.

Faults are there but can be hidden.

Time moves forward but is still.

Darkness is just lack of light.

Bordum is only in your head, deal with it.

Play not with the cards your dealt, but with the game itself.

Life is not a game, yet it can get a lot more unreal.

Reality is the performance of your goal.

A goal unachieved is a life unfufilled.

The bathroom is the best place to think.

Not thinking is a task best dealt with other thoughts.

Orginizing yourself is the first place to start.

Fear is an illusion that can be beaten by facing more fear.

Swimming against the current won't get you anywhere.

Running away from your problems will get you in trouble.

Evading is just lack of courage.

The best way to get something done, is to do it yourself.

When you fail, don't blame anyone else.

Learning can only be achieved after failure.


Fail me once shame on me, fail me twice shame on you.

You can get the first chance, sometimes a second, almost never a third.

Guaranty your word with more words.

Judge not less you want to be judged.

Nothing is perfect.

A normal life deals with the most unnormalities.

Your way is only ment for you.

Doing done doos dose do done.

We all have a sence of senselessness.

Kuwait... My country...

I love my country and believe I'm a true patriot - but as to any place it has it's down side. Coming up with these quirks of my country isn't easy without trash talking it. So I'll start of with what's good. It's a very small place, and everyone knows each other. Families are united and all push for the same thing. The rule is set by a mixture of elements democratic and the other one. Being a Kuwaiti gives you sooo many benefits, there are many freebees. It's a rich and powerful country, some of it's power overflows to the people.

With all that said and probably many more - I think it's fair if I say what I wanted. It's boring, small, and everyone knows what your up to. It sometimes feels like they are big brother but watching you all your life. Yea, your free to live however you want.... As long as you obey the rules. There's plenty of leeway with these rules as your not force against your will to do so - but in not doing so your life will be extremely difficult. That is unless you know the right people.

I'm not blaming stupid conspiracy theories and going psycho over nothing. No! It's there everyone knows it, and they're not even trying to hide it... Fuck your privacy I'm not letting you get away worth what your up to....




The rule is set by a large family which for all proposes are great. Any thing you say bad against them is considered treason and will either lead to banishment or death. So as fast as I can I'm moving on to the next one on my list of benefits. Freebees... Yea they're great if you had no other choice. Because the service is not based on first come. It's nausea on who you've called. Contacts are essential to get anything done in Kuwait. Both legal and illegal things.

Alcohol and drugs are extremely illegal with the former sentence with a death penalty - hanging... Yea i'm serious... However both are widely flooded into the country... The profits they make on them are illogical... It would be cheaper to buy a round trip ticked, in a five star hotel, with three bitches by your side the whole trip... Okay so that may be a little exaggerated... But you get the idea... Oh! Just so that I'm clear that bitches are illegal here too... The thing is these are the top three black market goods available. Sold... But only if you build proper trust - no matter how much money you have...

I got a little heated there, it's good for the soul. Even with the huge mess that's everyplace in Kuwait. I love it, and wouldn't leave it for the world (without coming back). It is home... And everything that comes with that. To live in an insanity and stay sain... Acting like everything is normal when stories are told. Not exaggerated but facts seen by someone who knows someone that was there. The problem occurs when these facts are conformed by someone completely diffrent who knows diffrent people wih the same story....

Details of these specific situations are difficult to prove. The fact of the matter is that there is a situation (and I wasn't invited) [but that's not why I speak ill of it] and nothing can really be done. Just accepted it, live as best you can. Move on to what's next, and make things happens on your own. A word of advice though... Don't.... Your better off.

Happy hump day :)

Obviously this is the dullest day ever. Also known as hump day. Doesn't sound so dull now does it? Hump day is the middle of the week and is the toughest day to "work" through. Just so that you know this is me "working" in my office barely moving, just small adjustments on the iPhone, with the thumbs working their magic. Although there is the ocational cigaret just to keep me awake. Slowly turning to two :@ I know it's bad, but its addictive. I can just think off how many people reading this is going to light up a smoke. One :p

Ahhh... Now that I've had my cigaret break, I can get back on topic. Hump day... The middle of the week. Nobody wants to work. Time passes slower that doomsday... Also known as the first day of the week. If you look on the bright side there's not a lot of time before the weekend... Ahhh the weekend. Truly bliss. Even when nothing is there, you get comfort in that nothing will come up. Planing for the weekend makes it worse, because you never get to do all you plan.

It's prety damn cold in here what the fuck is going on. I need to piss - that's better. Now I can think.... Still drawing a blank... That saying is so weird. How can you draw a blank? It takes skill.... I've wanted to try out this style of writing for some time now... Never could find a proper way of introducing it... Just it's all improper and this was probably the best way .

Still it's obvious that I don't have much to say today... And for some reason I can't think straight... Probably end up never posting this... If I get some kind of idea later on.

Triple threat... All a man realy needs.

1. Sleep
2. Food
3. Sex

In that order of immportance only because you'll die from sleep deprivation before starvation. The last one I believe is self explanitory. The real question is how to get what you need? You work your ass off, earn money, so you can pay the bills. In the end we are just animals (men)... It's the truth, and when it comes down to choosing a man; it's a matter of who can provide the best in these three areas. Yea size counts, and not only what you're thinking but the walet too. Money is essential to aquire the best in 2/3 of the areas. The third one you learn along the way.

We're best built to adapt to situations as best we can to gain these three elements of life. Growth is part of each situation as time is constant. The only way not to gain from time is never to try to achieve anything. Believing what is, is ment to be. Unfortunately human nature won't allow you to be pleased with what is there. Greed will take over, and form it you'll want more. Everything else that follows not within these three issues, is greed wanting more out of life. The irony in greed is, if you're hard headed enough you'll get what you want. Success brings about greater success. Failure is not an option.

It's not a matter of difficulty in what stands before you, but the fact that you fought for what you believe. When you believe you deserve a better life, do something about it. Anything you do will count. In the end all living things strive for survival, and 2/3 of the above are a requirement. Sex is bonus.

You can't stop, or even limit yourself and say: hey I've had enough. Think of the greatest person you know.... What made them great? They knew there's more out there, waiting for their grasp. My hand has been extended many times, and I've only managed to scratch the surface. Just a small peak onto the future, with a plan that only requires more work. Even with just a plan it seems more compleat. To get what I want and have what it takes. Even the risks of failure are not enough - dragging me down keeping me on earth. Today I dream while awake. Suffering the torture of life and how it works. Pleasing myself with a cause reason and desire. The future ain't so bad if I'm empowered, even when it is just by a dream. I hope never to wake up.

A little change goes a long way.

Every little thing counts. A butterfly flaps it's wings and causes a huricain 2000 miles away after 20 years. What would happen if you flapped your arms even just once - who knows what kind of difference it could make on your day. Probably end up in an insane asylum, if you play you're cards right. Otherwise you'd shrug people of and claim you had to stretch or you'd of pulled a muscle. Just know a lot could go wrong or right depending on what happens.

You could end up meeting you soulmate on the way. Maybe the boss will give you the day off. That would be nice. A day by yourself for yourself. Would you go home; not unless you've got someone waiting for you. Surprise! You catch them with someone else. Yea... A lot of possibilities out there. Any thing can happen.

Different trials will occur for different combinations of actions. Every action has as equal opposing reaction, Newton. So what happens when you change?You'll get a different reaction. The thing about that is you never know what it is. There's a saying loosely translated would say: You are better off dealing what you know is bad, less you change it and get something worse. That is the risk you take when dealing with the unknown. If your lucky you'll get something better- the question is then, are you feeling lucky?

Luck is a big part of life. People go through a lot to feel lucky- maybe horseshoe a favors foot or a little salt over the shoulder every morning. I really feel most lucky when I give for no reason. Karma to me is luck, or so close I can't tell them apart. Perhaps one fuels the other, or do they work hand in hand. Either way something is there...

So when you need help most; give something back to someone worse off than you. Even if it's just worthy advice for life. You probably won't get back anything immediately, but you will have a better day overall. Even if at that moment all you got was a smile and a shake off. That smile will put a smile on you. Even a smile goes a long way. It could make the entire difference in your day, no make that life.

Learn to live and love, give and receive. If it wasn't for that, what would you need. The desire would burn, no way to learn. All you need is one little change. Everything else will just fall into place. Just have a little faith.

Plan for life








For a long time I've been letting fate be in control of my life. I never realized I can control fate. It takes a lot of effort, and it has to be progressive, but when I set my mind on something it becomes acheivable. There are goals which are too high to set, and chalanges to difficult to take on head first. Although if you plan it carefully, and consider every contingency, you'll know what you have to do. As long as you keep up the motivation that pushed you forward, you rarely will be pushed back.

Motivation is sometimes instantainous, and can go away because of harsh facts. These same motives will come back, because that is the dream... Now once upon a time I had difficulty dreaming, and reality was all I could see. Now I know those oppertunities were not ment for me.

As more oppertunities pass by, I relize that you don't have to follow just one. Most of them are duds anyway, and any single one can be a start; to a new path, a new relm, a new life. Following up on more than one oppertunity makes it eaiser when it doesn't boom. This is in essence risk avertion; where is the risk when you haven't started? In failure...

Failing in more than one area is a bigger success than failing in one. Having more options still left open for discusion is success, even when you failed before. That is how powerful oppertunities are, and you not only have to plan for success, but for failure as well. As long as you make it extreemly difficult to fail, you can be happy that you tried your best. The worst feeling ever is looking back at something with the feeling you could of gone a diffrent angle and tackled the situation and succeeded if only you..... Please remember past is past and it will not change. Present is what's happening right now dealwith it as it comes, but the future... Well it's where dreams are made...

Keep it on mind always, and you'll have what it takes to push forward. Not only will you live, but you will grow. Much like trees, perpetually growing against the laws of physics and nature, to better themselves day by day. Every little push forward will count,and you will always be a little closer to your goal.

When nothing is everything

Days come by where you would like to do any activity, but no activity comes to mind better than not doing anything at all. Especially after a weekend and your wiped out compleatly. The best thing you can do is nothing. Few people can activly do nothing and not worry about what needs to be done. I however can do nothing all day long, and enjoy it.

Bordum can eat up your soul when it gets difficult to deal with,  but accepting it as part of you makes it eaiser. Buisy yourself with tasks and to dos it goes away compleatly. You littrealy forget about nothing, but when nothing is there your trapped and wished you had something to do. The way I've dealt with this is to enjoy it, because i know i'm going to wish for it later. Maybe even begin to encorporate it with a specific time.

When you start a schedual, you then need to manage and apply it. When your schedual is all your routine life, you then need to find a way to break it. Perhaps a little light travel someplace new. Sometimes even a break from reality is not enough. This is the time to surender yourself to fate, and accept what is to be. There will come a time when you feel in control... Don't let it go so eaisely, but don't be so tight that when you need to let go it is buried with your soul. Make time for yourself, everyday. When you can't sit with youself for however long. Let it be known, something is very wrong. How in the world are other people keeping up with it? Are you there because its nessisary, and you can't be replaced? Hope your answer is no, because if it were yes... Well I wouldn't know.

The vastness of space

Sometimes I think I can rule the world, and others I face reality. I live like any other average person with just a few perks. Yet some less average people have what I want; freedom. It doesn't come without a price. If you only trust what you believe you can't grow to be above the rest. The price is that you will lose rest over life... Read that again just to be clear. There's nothing that comes without you giving something else.

In the world today a smile is traded with a smile, a hug with a hug. Everything has it's value. Even the emptiness of space. I'm not talking about stars and the universe. I speak of what's always around us waiting to be broken just waiting to be touched.

Nobody can truly live happily without being connected, or at least the illusion of connectivity. Why else would anyone reach out to a bunch of strangers that dont really care. People wasting there time reading this right here. Let me ask you what's the point، the answer is connectivity, and the need for humans to stay active when there othetwise dulled. Why else would facebook be so popular, it's a necessity of life.

Trust is invaluable and is traded with trust. There are levels of trust, one of which is online trust. That which you can share online you can share in life, but not always vice versa. Take into account online you hide behind the mask of annoniminty, creating a freedom of carelessness. No real life encounter can give you that freedom, there is always the consciousness maby even fear of lossing a loved because of a loose toung.

Then again you sometimes need to vent out, even when no one is listening. Just to remind yourself that something is there, nagging at your brain. One way to achieve this feat is to reach out to space. There's so much ut there that eventually your words will reach someplace. This is my attempt, anybody out there reading make your mark. Tell me what you think.

A first time for everything...

Some times life is simple when you follow the rules.
Other times life is just chaos. Much like the words of the English language. As a test to myself I would like to see how far my few words reach. As this is my first blog ever. There's much to rant about in this world. I just need to know someone is listening. The irony in this is that I know I won't care. It is just madness that has taken me here.

In life I've found that there's added value in a name, but it's also true that it can hinder your growth in life... I know at first glance that may seem condradictory but in my life I found to be a rule. To understand this dilemma you need to know something about me; I come from a large, wealthy family; which has over time grew infamous in it's nature around the country. As you can clearly see it defines me without a doubt in what I'm ment to become, however in my curent stage of life I build on my own. Yet in the end I know that's the first realization anyone comes to see right after asking my name, and because of it I've connected only to a small group of people and hidden the rest from the world.

As I grew older I came to know how to embrace reality and take control. Make it clear that every one knows. I'm me on my own, and I have no value; yet. Surly still be aware that I will grow, not from other but myself alone. However I still need my voice to be heard. Surly there is some value in my words. Even now I think this trough, how can I make it sence to you.

This has never driven me before, but as I sit here at work, workless (if that makes sence) adjusting my iPhone to write this blog. Ideas hit me from past, present, and even what's to come. I truly hope you enjoyed my rant as much as I did. I want this in record and this way people who are interested can drive me to a diffrent topic.