I feel like a dog

The need for attention, deprivation. Love. Seeking to find the unknown. Chasing things that never go away. Happy with a simple pat on the back. Pushed forward by good feedback. Even in the hope of it. Self satisfaction, no matter what is actually being achieved. So long as something keeps praise coming my way. ‏​‏​‏​

Self praise is hard to confirm. But when staying alone, I'm almost never lonely. Missing the affection, but giving it so much attention when it's there. A female companion is nice but unnecessary. A mix of a need and want. But when I get it, value is still with the unknown. New tricks being learned every day. Filling my head, forgetting what was said, what I did; and making the same mistakes again.