The sweet bitter truth

Times come by when you are faced with a decision. A choice that if made, you won't regret either way. These times pass as if they were nothing, but acting on them makes a big difference. I relized there was no point, but I made sure everyone else new. I made the mistake of making sure my action was ment for you. Although the subject unsaid but ment unthought and unclear. Was it a favor from me to you a favor without string. But my string was obvious it felt more like a rope. It gave me a bit much expecting a loop, a kill a wonder. How I did it was wrong, I should of hid it all along, I treys to act like it was something good, but it bit me like it should. That was too free of me too careless. Too much unthought read unsaid done begun. How in the world are these things unclear. It is ment something else but it became something for me. Oh cruelty...

A little misjudgment went a long way. A diffrent thought process from a diffrent view. I thought of it one way and never expected iy to go back too. A head on collision a major bash. Head to head with thoughts of chicken in my head. Neither steered away from th coarse. Neither hesitant of death. A crash is expected and prepared. Norther parties fully aware. BOOM! They hit. Miraculasly both survive. Shake of the dust and wake each other up. Not a dream not reality walked away with peace and no harm. Nothing every happened no right or wrong. Thank God for survival. It was never ment. You'll keep whatever you have of yourself. No roads or cars involved, just two people passing by. Each going through the other as if they were a fly. When the window breaks and vision is clearer, wait for the part that admits. I was mistaken but should I confront it. Evrything was flowing on the go, but was happenening so fast i never saw it comeing.

On a diffrent side note,  probably should be writen elswhere, vaction is on... and I am off....... If you think about it clearly... there are times when you want to shut off compleatly... but you face the sweet bitter truth.... even when your in isolation, hibernation, solitude, or whatever you want to call it... there are issues which bring you back. Be it work, be it family, or be it for a choir. During this vacation I've met with all three... Each came at a diffrent time, and I couldn't do it any other way. Usually you'd be on most of the time, with stutters of swiching off, or just sleep. Right now i'm getting stutters of swiching on, and every thing else is off. I'm not sure that makes sence, but it's the best way to explain it. Oh! If you didn't relized this paragraf is one of those moments. (is it considered as being off, or on?) My head still banging, the ringing won't stop. (i'm sick) At the worst time possible. (when i don't have work) trying my best to quickly overcome the illness and enjoy the fun.